Honestly these past couple weeks have been the roughest emotionally for me with not being with my family and best friends over the holidays. I’ve caught myself not being fully present here and wanting to go home to celebrate Christmas with the people I love back home. I knew the Christmas season would be tough but it hit me much harder than I expected. I cried more than I think I ever have in a week span seeing pictures of my friends and family celebrating over the holiday season. This is the first time of my trip that I’ve truly experienced homesickness and instead of ignoring those sad feelings I let them all into my heart hoping God could use those feelings. Although it has been some of the most emotional weeks, He has used those feelings and it has been some of the most growing weeks with my relationship with the Lord. With being here for around 2 1/2 months I have been starting to get comfortable and not being as intentional as I should be. I’ve been praying daily for God to grow me to lean on Him and His Word more and more. He answered that prayer and I felt broken and had feelings of loneliness and sadness and found myself praying out to God to fill me up because I’ve realized He is the only one who can. God has delivered His incredible strength to me through His Word, prayer, and the people here in A Coruña and these past couple days I have felt renewed in His light!! I’ve been reminded by the Lord of my mission here and have felt His love more than I ever have before. He has lit my heart with a new fire for Him and His people here that do not know about His everlasting love!! Isn’t it incredible that we serve a Heavenly Father who gives us strength even in the most broken days!! God laid a passage of scripture on my heart that I have read every day the past couple weeks that has reminded me that I lack nothing and am eternally loved as a Child of God:
“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” [Psalm 23]
Walking into the new year, I know I have a guide that I can trust to lead me in my remaining months and that He is good and loving no matter what my day looks like!!
-more confidence and boldness speaking in Spanish
-my roommate, Monse, to have a safe flight back to Mexico