ONE WEEK FROM TODAY I’LL BE ON A PLANE TO SPAIN!! I feel like it won’t truly hit me that I’m leaving until I’m sitting on the plane saying bye to the place I’ve called home since I was 2 years old: [Georgia]. Leading up to this trip has been such a journey for me in my walk with Jesus. Last blog, I told y’all I was leaving in mid September but plans changed and it got delayed a month due to some complications with the visa process. I’m going to be completely honest, I was upset we were being delayed a month because all my friends were in their new chapters of their life with college and work and I was so readily anticipating mine! I was so ready to start my journey on what I thought was the perfect time but God had other plans. When my trip got delayed, I prayed that God would use me somehow in the extra month I had before I left. Just a couple days after praying that prayer, God answered that prayer in a way I was never expecting! It’s incredible to me that I serve a Father who answers my prayers in ways I would never imagine but are all in His perfect plan for my life.
I received a phone call from my dad saying my grandpa was in desperate need for someone to help him take care of my grandma who was suffering with a terrible neck injury. I got on a plane the next day to North Carolina and was overwhelmed with emotions when I got to their house and saw the condition my grandma was in. My grandma is one of the most active and strong people I know and seeing her not being able to walk or use the bathroom without assistance left me with questions on why this was happening to her and doubts in my heart. Those four days of staying up late, giving her medicine almost every hour, and having to hold her every time she walked was emotionally and physically draining but I would have never changed my decision going and serving my grandma alongside my grandpa. Through the time I was there, my prayers became stronger to God, I was able to read a lot which encouraged and helped me through the hours, and I saw my grandpa serving my grandma selflessly with patience and love. I think my favorite memory of the time I was there was sitting with my grandma in the dark talking and listening to worship music with one another! Even though we were surrounded by darkness in the room and in the situation my grandma was in, we could cling to the light that is JESUS CHRIST and HIS EVERLASTING LOVE!!
The time spent with my grandma being dependent on my grandpa and I for everything reminded me of how we should live our lives when we have accepted Christ in our hearts. As Christians, our hope and trust is in Jesus!! My grandma needed assistance with every step she took which is how we should be living our lives walking with God. We need God’s guidance and assistance with every step we take in our daily lives. Seeing my grandma struggle with steps painted such a visual picture of the Christian walk to me. Sometimes we struggle walking with God and walking firmly without some stumbles when we are on His directed path for our lives. The verse that came to my mind was, “I will walk by faith even when I can not see.” (2 Corinthians 5:7) That verse is POWERFUL and HITS HARD especially when you are going through something where you don’t know why God is using it in His plan for your life at the time. I was taught through this situation to remember every event that happens in your life is in God’s plan even when it doesn’t make sense. If my trip had not been delayed, I would have never been able to go up and care for my grandma in her time of need which impacted me in my walk with Jesus and helped shape and grow me in love and selflessness. God has a specific plan for every single one of our lives and will use different situations to grow and sharpen us to lean on Him because HE IS OUR SOURCE OF HOPE AND IS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS THE PLAN FOR OUR LIVES!!
GOD IS FAITHFUL YALL! With this extra month before my trip, I have had more slowness and rest in my life than I have ever had before. At first I though that was a bad thing but I have got to read some incredible books that have helped me in my walk, have intentional fellowship with my incredible friends and family, and dig into God’s Word more than I ever have before! (Side note: Some of the books I have dug into this month are Friend of Sinners by Rich Wilkerson, All In by Mark Batterson, and Radical by David Platt. Go check them out!!) With my trip coming up in a short 7 days, I have been feeling a whole wide range of emotions but two that have stood out to me have been PEACE and JOY! I am scared and anxious of what’s to come of this next chapter but more than that I have an overwhelming peace I can’t explain that GOD’S GOT ME! With the goodbyes starting today to my incredible friends, I am filled with sadness that I won’t be seeing them for a while but I feel this incredible joy remembering how much God has blessed me with bringing each one of them into my life and I’ve never truly stood back and thanked God for each special friend in my life until I started saying my goodbyes today! WOW IM BLESSED!! I know He is working through each one of them and will do great things through them this upcoming year which overcomes my sadness with joy! No matter where you’re called to whether it’s where you are at right now or half way across the world, God’s mission remains the same to love others and shine your light in the darkness!! You are where you are right now because that’s where God wants you to be and when you realize that and fully surrender your life, God will take you in directions you could never even dream of.
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Can you please join me in prayer for my team’s hearts as we prepare to leave in a week, any anxieties or fears we are feeling, and for the flight process to go smoothly.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me financially or through prayers! Remember that God’s light always shines no matter what you are going through and you can confidently put hope in His powerful name!!